Numbers 24 – 3rd Divination; Divination for Balak; Five Deity Names

The Third Divination/Offering

With the 3rd go around, Balaam instead of seeking divination between him and Jehovah again, rather, “set his face towards the wilderness” and received a vision:

Numbers 24:2 – And Balaam lifted up his eyes, and he saw Israel abiding in his tents according to their tribes; and the spirit of Elohim came upon him. And he took up his parable, and said, Balaam the sone of Beor hath said, and the man whose eyes are open hath said: He hath said, which heard the words of Elohim, which saw the visions of sad*day (almighty), falling into a trance, but having his eyes open:

This verse is Balaam describing himself, what he initially saw, and take note that he admits he’s in a “trance” the way man diviners receive their visions.

He then goes on to poetically describe what he sees. Notice the word switching between Jacob/Isreal and Elohim/Jehovah:

24:5 – How goodly are thy tents, O Jacob, and thy tabernacles, O Israel! As the valleys are they spread forth, as gardens by the river’s side, as the trees of lign aloes which Jehovah hath planted, and as cedar trees beside the waters. He shall pour the water out of his buckets, and his seed shall be in many waters, and his king shall be higher than Agag, and his kingdom shall be exalted. Elohim brought him forth out of Egypt; he hath as it were the strength of an unicorn: he shall eat up the nations his enemies, and shall break their bones, and pierce them through with arrows. He couched, he lay down as a lion, and as a great lion: who shall stir him up? Blessed is he that blesseth thee, and cursed is he that curseth thee.


  • Jehovah has planted trees? Is he seeing into the future? Will the verse verify this?
  • Look at all the mention of “water”. Two chapters ago, the Israelites were being KILLED because they had no water and complained about it.
  • Who’s seed is being referred to in 24:7?
    • Remember: It wasn’t until Jehovah “visited” and “did that thing” to Sarah that she bore children.
    • I conclude he speaks of Jehovah’s seed. The verse speaks directly to Jacob and Israel in the first verse, but speaks of Jehovah in 3rd person
      • Verse 5 starts out speaking directly to Jacob and Israel (underlined).
      • Jehovah is mentioned in the 3rd person (red)
      • The rest of the 3rd person uses he, thus
        • Jehovah has planted lign aloes and cedar trees
        • Jehovah will pour water out of his buckets and his seed will be in many waters
        • Jehovah’s king will be higher than Agag, his kingdom will be exalted
        • Elohim brought Jehovah out of Egypt
        • Jehovah has the strength of a unicorn
          • Remember, this was already mentioned regarding Jehovah
          • Thus, it CAN NOT be referring to Isaac or Jacob
      • The verse ends back to 1st person when Balaam speaks to Isaac and Jacob saying “those who bless thee are blessed, etc.
    • My conclusion confirmed by verse: the seed referred to in 24:7 is the seed of Jehovah: the Israelites who descend from Sara being *visited* by Jehovah

So Balaam’s vision tells him the Israelites are to be blessed, and this angers King Balak because he wanted them to be cursed, and apparently, in each of the 3 divinations, Balaam put a blessing on Israel.

Remember: Who ever blesses Israel will be blessed. Balaam blessed them three times. Will this rule stand?

Balak was hoping to heap great honor upon Balaam for cursing the Israelites, however:

24:13 – If Balak would give me his house full of silver and gold, I cannot go beyond the commandment of Jehovah, to do either good or bad of mine own mind; but what Jehovah saith, that will I speak?

Notice in verse 13 Balaam clearly knows Jehovah, and calls him by his usual name Yaweh.

Balaam’s Proverb for Balak

Before Balaam returns to his people he offers a vision to Balak. Notice the usage of the three names/titles mentioned in previous verse. Three different entities? Or all the same?

24:16 – He hath said, which heard the words of God, and knew the knowledge of the most High, which saw the vision of the Almighty, falling into a trance, but having his eyes open (KJV)

Here’s the same verse using Hebrew Interlinear:

24:16 – He hath said, which heard the words of *El*, and knew the knowledge of El*Yon, which saw the vision of Sad*day…

So Balaam has attributed three different characteristics to each name:

  • El – words
  • El*Yon – knowledge
  • Sad*day – visions

Notice no mention of Yaweh/Jehovah. People argue they are one in the same. I conclude otherwise.

He explains to Balak how Israel will dominate the various peoples in the land: Moab, children of Sheth, Edom, Seir, how Amalek was destroyed forever, the Kenites will be carried away by Asshur.

24:23 – And he toook up his parable, and said, Alas, who shall live when *El* doeth this?

Ships from the coast of Kittim will come, afflict Asshur and Eber, and he (one of them?) will perish forever.

So who is Balaam referring to when he speaks of *el*? Remember, *el* is singular. Is he speaking of a different deity other than Jehovah? If not, why not just use Jehovah, as he did in verse 13?

Is there another force behind Jehovah, that gives him his power to be “strong like a unicorn”? Is this deity *El* that Balaam refers to?

The deities listed so far, for reference:

  • Elohim – gods (plural)
  • Jehovah/Yaweh – The LORD (singular)
  • El*yon – most High (singular)
  • Sad*day – Almighty (singular)
  • El – god (singular)

More questions that require rewinding back to Genesis:

  • Who is Sheth?
    • Is this the same Seth, 3rd child of Adam and Eve?
    • When did Seth’s bloodline go wrong?
    • How did Seth’s bloodline live on after Noah’s flood?
  • Who is Seir?
    • Seir was a Horite
    • Later references refer to Seir as a “land”
  • Who is Asshur?
    • Second son of Shem, Noah’s son
    • Thought to be named for Assyria, responsible for building Ninevah
    • Note that in some cases, Asshur was considered “a god”
  • Where is Kittim?
    • Thought to be an island or set of islands
    • Possibly current day Cypress
  • Who is Eber?
    • Great great grandson of Shem
    • Father of Terah, Abraham’s father

Looking at the genealogy of Eber, despite him being the grandfather of Abraham, that lineage is not part of the covenant and those people are visioned to perish forever.

This reminds me, just how did Abram end up in Ur of Chaldee, Babylon? Maybe a look back at that part in Genesis is necessary.


Leviticus – Redux

Leviticus must be frustrating for those wishing to learn more about the words in the Bible, and how it all meshes with modern religion.

Modern religion seems to be a frankenstein like beast, put together with fragments of dead stories which fit best with modern times and norms. The rest of the pieces of the stories are ignored or not discussed.

Who’s to blame them? There are so many foreign concepts and ideas in Leviticus, it’s almost as if the entire book of Leviticus, AND Genesis and Exodus, were clearly written for a specific set of people in a specific time in history in a specific geographic location. Which is one of my primary points in this blog, and Leviticus only solidifies my argument.

So why do modern Christians believe the bible, from beginning to end, is applicable to them as a whole? Is it the misused usage of words like “forever” and “the whole earth” when we see that “forever” ended A LONG TIME AGO (i.e. the Levitical priesthood) and the “whole earth” really only describes the geographic locations the author knew about at the time.

After all, it wasn’t until 1492 that people realized there was an entire Hemisphere between them and India. Suddenly, the concept of the “whole world” changed!

People today believe Jehovah is the creator of the universe. Yet Leviticus states that there are many rituals that are to be performed “for ever”. They have not been performed in thousands of years in the presence of the tabernacle. Yet the world moves on and progresses and the punishments Jehovah laid out in Leviticus 26 are not here.

Heave offerings, wave offerings, burnt flock, burning fat, altars, anointing, oils, priestly regalia. All foreign to most anyone outside the Middle East proper. Yet I’m supposed to believe this book is for all people throughout the world?

Oh, and who can forget the body count between Jehovah and the Devil at this point in the Bible, the end of Leviticus. All death and destruction has come at the hands of Jehovah. NOTHING from the devil. His only “evil” was telling Adam and Eve the truth about eating of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. The Bible is clear on this point.

I can almost hear the cry of Christians saying I am a devil apologist, etc. I’m only repeating what the Bible clearly states. Jehovah said they would die if they ate the fruit; The Serpent said they would only open their eyes if they ate the fruit. They ate the fruit and opened their eyes. Who is the liar in this story!?

Look at what happened to the two sons of Aaron, burnt to death by Jehovah. Look at how Leviticus treats medical issues like leprosy, no actual treatment, except through burnt offerings and priestly rituals. Does this pass in modern times? Does a parent kill their children for bringing them the wrong food? When you have a flu, do you burn a goat to heal yourself?

The dichotomy between Jehovah and Elohim is briefly touched upon in Leviticus. Elohim gave us the stars to track days and times; Jehovah says do not observe times.

The church tells us there are 10 main Commandments. Well the 10 they talk about are actually part of 13 total if you single out the specific chapter they are mentioned in. Conveniently those last 3 are left out in modern times (picking and choosing?) Not only that, there are HUNDREDS more commandments laid out.

The writing style of Leviticus seems to be continuous from Exodus, but oddly scattered, as we find smack dab in the middle of the constant commandments coming out of Jehovah, a story about a man who cursed Jehovah and was stoned to death.

Leviticus 26 is probably the most potent chapter of them all when studying the personality of this god, Jehovah. The brutality of his punishments tells me he is no better, nay, he is much worse towards the Israelites than the Egyptians were.

The Israelites are clearly still under slavery and servitude, except instead of to a Pharaoh and his nation, they are shackled under an invisible god working through an intermediary via Moses and a priesthood clan.

I still stand on my belief that either a) Jehovah at this time is NOT the same Jehovah in Genesis and Exodus, but the entity (or Moses) has hijacked his name; OR; b) The Jehovah concept is being used by a powerful magician via Moses, who utilizes volcanic and natural events to control his people through fear.

The idea that Jehovah walked among Adam, Abraham, etc. but can not appear to anyone but Moses in Exodus and Leviticus tells me they are not the same entity. The term “elohim”, despite being the entities credited for all the good creation in Genesis 1, have all but disappeared from the Bible at this point. Yet modern churches preach that it is the same entity from beginning to end.

If I was being proselytized to, in a foreign land far from the cultures of the historic (or even modern) Middle East, this book thus far would have absolutely ZERO applicability on my life. The majority of the story would be completely foreign and inapplicable to my survival.

YET! This story has spread all across the world like wildfire. Is it because it is, indeed, applicable to all the world?

OR! Is it because the manner in which it was initially spread (by book or sword) and the ultimate message (follow this or you are going to burn in hell forever) have put absolute fright into those who receive the message?

Millions have died as these Abrahamic religions that reference these early books in the Bible spread around the world. At some point, a parent is going to accept these teachings in order to save their children from death at the hands of the religious fanatic. The children grow up, and pass it on to their children, etc. At some point, we forget just HOW this doctrine was given to us and we accept it all as fact, never remembering the dismembering, torture, burnings, and death that accompanied these religions as they spread into distant lands.

Problem is, unlike the peoples of the past, TODAY we are free people, we can read for ourselves, we can research the past for ourselves, we can analyze what religions tell us is “true” and make decisions on our own. Is it any wonder people leave modern religions despite the promise of burning hell and fire and brimstone as punishment if they do?

At some point the Boogy Man no longer puts fear in the child who has become an adult when the adult realizes there really wasn’t an actual Boogy Man. Reading the actual words of the Bible is slowly removing said fear, despite the modern churches still teaching this fragmented doctrine of eternal hell and an angry vengeful god.

I could easily toss this book aside at this point in the Bible for all said reasons above, but I am continuing forward because I enjoy the process of discovery.

Leviticus 18 – Cultures, Nakedness, Abominations

Jehovah speaks to Moses telling him to tell the Israelites:

Leviticus 18:3 – After the doings of the land of Egypt, wherein ye dwelt, shall ye not do: and after the doings of the land of Canaan, whither I bring you, shall ye not do: neither shall ye walk in their ordinances.

So there are cultural practices and norms that Jehovah does not want them to do, practices they did in Egypt, and practices of the people of Canaan.


The concept of “uncovering nakedness” has been somewhat ambiguous. When Noah’s nakedness was uncovered by Ham, it was such a serious event that Noah cursed his own grandson, (ironically Canaan). So there is more to this “uncovering” than I believe Ham seeing his own father nude. We get hints that “uncovering” a female relatives nakedness meant actually laying with her in a sexual manner. Did some perverse sexual encounter take place with Ham and Noah that the author didn’t describe? All we are told is that Ham told his brothers, who then came and covered their father (but didn’t look at his nakedness) yet Ham’s son was cursed for it all!

Jehovah lays out rules about “uncovering nakedness” and after reviewing Leviticus 18:6 through 18, it really does sound like a mandate to prevent incest within family members, blood or marriage relatives. Also included are “approaching” (as is used in verses 6-18) an unclean woman to “uncover her nakedness” or “laying carnally” with your neighbors wife.


18:21 – And thou shalt not let any of thy seed pass through the fire to Molech, neither shalt thou profane the name of thy god…

Who is Molech? It is a deity? It is a concept/idea? Why is this name capitalized in the text the way a proper name is? Modern interpretation tells us that children were sacrificed to Molech by burning them. Was Abraham familiar with the deity or concept of Molech? After all he was willing sacrifice Jacob to Jehovah at his request, WITHOUT QUESTION! Is this concept of child sacrifice normalized to these Hebrew peoples at this time?

  • It is an abomination to lie with mankind as it is to lie with womankind
    • This the verse that tells us that “the Bible says” homosexuality is immoral (Leviticus 18:22)
    • What is the punishment for breaking this rule?
  • It is an abomination to lie with Animals
    • It is not considered an abomination but “confusion” (Leviticus 18:23)
    • Does this concept go back to Genesis 6, pre-flood world where (in Elohim terms) ALL CREATION (animals and man) were defiled?

18:24 – Defile not  ye yourselves in any of these things: for in all these the nations that are defiled which I cast out before you: And the land is defiled: therefore I do visit the iniquity thereof upon it, and the land itself vomiteth out her inhabitants.

This verse :24 accomplishes multiple goals:

  • Lays down future law
  • Explains the reasoning for the supposed upcoming slaughter of the indigenous people of Canaan (who are related to the Israelites through Abraham)

Interesting chapter. We get some specifics on the people that are about to be genocided, and why Jehovah lays out certain rules to his people.

Sidenote: If Jehovah supposedly created the heavens and the earth and breathed life into ALL mankind, then he really screwed up by allowing his creation to go against him. This concept that creator does not have control over his creation flies in the face of what we are told “god” is today, that ALL THINGS are possible with god. Not only that, Jehovah has never claimed that these Canaanite nations, nor the Egyptians, were his creation. This is an assumption that is made.

Not only that, the whole PURPOSE of the Great Flood was a FAILURE. There is still “evil” on earth (yet the word evil hasn’t really been used, instead we get the term “defiled”.)

Not once has he said “my creation is compromised”. Is it because he is embarrassed by the creation? Or that he really didn’t create man and is merely responsible for this one group of people which he “inherited” according to Moses.

18:27 – (For all these abominations have the men of the land done, which were before you, and the land is defiled;) That the land spue not you out also, when ye defile it, as it spued out the nations that were before you.

This verse is talking about the future as if it were in the past (“as it spued” = past tense) yet the nations of Canaan, at this point in the narrative and timeline, have yet to be removed. This tells me this text was written long after the events took place. Which also tells me that much of the explanation of events could very well be made up to explain the past (Sodom & Gomorrah destroyed by volcanic activity – Explanation: the people MUST HAVE been wicked to suffer such a fate, etc.)

Also note: NONE of the defilement has been attributed to Satan.







Exodus 16: Manna and the Sabbath. Another lesson.

Was Jehovah not ready for this exodus of peoples? They keep up ending in the situation where they do not have what is necessary to survive. In Exodus 15 it was water, in Exodus 16 it is now food.


Is he making his people suffer on purpose just to prove his point? Why not give them what they need in the first place, and then punish them if they get out of line to prove this point? I see this as a human flaw well documented in psychological circles.

Either way:

  • They are still under his slavery, they have no control of their survival or destiny
  • Jehovah is still showing humanistic traits
  • The Israelites in their captivity by Jehovah are going through a roller coaster of “mercy”, great things followed by starvation and thirst, followed by “mercy” most of which is all the fault/cause of Jehovah.

Back to the narrative:

Exodus 16:3 – And the children of Israel said unto them, Would to Jehovah (note, KJV: says God, not Yahweh) we had died by the hand of Jehovah in Egypt, when we sat by the flesh pots, and when we did eat bread to the full; for ye have brought us forth into this wilderness, to kill this whole assembly with hunger.

The people starve. Things were better in Egypt. Note they are not complaining about being tired, hot, lost, etc. They are complaining about two ABSOLUTE NECESSITIES to survive. Once again, it sounds like Jehovah is doing this on purpose so that he can continue to issue mandates to them.

16: 4 – Then said Jehovah unto Moses, Behold, I will rain bread from heaven for you; and the people shall go out and gather a certain rate every day, that I may prove them whether they will walk in my law, or no.

There it is, he is doing this to test their ability to follow his law. So the bread that will fall from heaven, they will gather for six days, and the miracle will be that on the sixth day, they will be able to gather twice as much as they usually do (to cover for the 7th day).

Moses scolds the people telling them, despite them complaining to Moses and Aaron, they really are complaining against Jehovah (in other words, they are treading dangerous water by doing so.)

The glory (light) of Jehovah appears in the cloud (assuming this is cloud pillar). Jehovah tells Moses that in the evening, the people will eat flesh, and in the morning they will eat bread.

That evening, quails covered the camp. The next morning, manna appeared.


  • Appears in the morning when the morning dew evaporates
  • Means “we know not what it is”
  • It was small and round (is this were the communion wafer comes from?)
  • No one mentioned it falling from the heavens.
  • When they gather it, whether they gather too much or too little, when they distributed it out, there was always just the right amount. Though they are supposed to collect an “omer” (some sort of measurement)
  • They gathered it daily, and left none over night.
  • If they did leave it over night, it gathered worms and stank (this did happen and Moses was angry)
  • Only appears 6 days out of the week
  • Looks like coriander seed and taste like wafers with honey
  • They ate manna for 40 years until they came to the borders of Canaan

16:27 – And it came to pass, that there went out some of the people on the seventh day for to gather, and they found none. And Jehovah said unto Moses, How long refuse ye to keep my commandments and my laws? See, for that Jehovah hath given you the sabbath, therefore he giveth you on the sixth day the bread of two days; abide ye every man in his place, let no man go out of his place on the seventh day.

Humans, never following instructions properly.  You know you are guilty too at times. It’s who we are and if you are a parent you know children are difficult with instructions. So, much like what a parent would do, Jehovah shuts all the people in their rooms (tents?) on the Sabbath day as punishment. Is this where the “go to your room!” for misbehavior and today’s “time out” come from?

The author finishes Chapter 16 by explaining that an Omer is 1/10 of an Ephah




Genesis 35 – Jacob, God, Rachel; Death of Isaac.

We have not heard from Yahweh, Jehovah, the Lord since Chapter 31. Now we hear from God aka Elohim:

Genesis 35:1 – And God said unto Jacob, Arise, go up to Beth-El, and dwell there: and make there an altar unto God, that appeared unto thee when thou fleddest from the face of Esau thy brother.

When did Jacob flee from Esau? We know initially he fled to Haran after he stole his father Isaac’s blessing from Esau. Going back to Genesis 28 we see that Jacob ended up in Beth-el where he set up an altar to God (note not the Lord/Jehovah/Yahweh). Not only that, his offering upon the altar was of oil, not of the savoury blood and flesh of pristine animals as Jehovah has demanded in the past.

We know Jehovah has been quiet for a few chapters now. Jacob receives a message from God and here’s his response to his children:

35:2 – Then Jacob said unto his household, and to all that were with him, Put away the strange gods that are among you, and be clean, and change your garments: And let us arise, and go up to Beth-el; and I will make there an altar unto God, who answered me in the day of my distress, and was with me in the way which I went. And they gave unto Jacob all the strange gods which were in their hand, and all their earrings which were in their ears; and Jacob hid them under the oak which was by Shechem.

Interesting observation: Jacob didn’t destroy these strange gods, HE HID THEM. Why just hide? So that when God was out of the picture they could bring them out of hiding?

I would like to know, just WHAT were these strange ‘gods’? Figurines? Idols? Carvings? Do they exist in the material record of these Middle Eastern people? Note that these strange gods were “in their hands”. Something they carried around constantly in their hands? Rings?

Jacob’s people journey to Beth-el, along the way the nations surrounding him were terrorized by God, so that no one bothered him and his people. Jacob builds an altar in Luz aka Beth-El in the land of Canaan. God appears to Jacob again and tells him that he will no longer be called Jacob, but now Israel.

Interesting that we now have TWO separate stories where Jacob is told his name will change to Israel. First a “man” who wrestles him tells him, and now God who appears to him out of Paddan-Aram tells him. Note that despite the command of the man he wrestled that he would be called Israel, he is continued to be called Jacob up to this point. Consistency? Not in this story.

Important: We are now dealing with Elohim aka God. Note what Jacob does in verse 14 and compare it to the rules of Yahweh, Jehovah, aka the Lord in previous verse:

Genesis 35:14 – And Jacob set up a pillar in the place where talked with him (God), even a pillar of stone: and he poured a drink offering thereon, and he poured oil thereon.

His offerings were not of sheep, flock, blood, or rams; his offering was of drink and oil. How different is this from the requisites of Jehovah/Yahweh/the Lord?

Can we see the differentiation between the Lord and God yet? It’s a subtle notion in the Bible but it becomes increasingly clear. Remind yourself of the offering that Melchizedek gave when he thanked God Most High for Abraham’s victory and the return of his riches. Not an offering of an animal sacrifice, but an offering of bread and wine.

Back to the story: Jacob had to have his household “clean house” because God entered the picture. AKA get rid of those strange gods and hide them because God is here, has just instructed us, and is helping us along our journey.

Rachel, who’s midwife Deborah has just recently passed away, dies upon giving birth to Benjamin, the youngest of the 12 children.

35:19 – And Rachel died, and was buried in the way to Ephrath, which is Beth-lehem. And Jacob set a pillar upon her grave: that is the pillar of Rachel’s grave unto this day. And Israel journeyed, and spread his tent beyond the tower of Edar.

The subjects of the writers intentions were supposed to know two specifics from this verse:

  1. The location of the pillar that signified Rachel’s grave
    1. It was “there to this day”
  2. The location of the Tower of Edar

Are these two spots available to locate today? If the answer is no, what does that tell us about these stories? That the authors intended audience would know where Rachel’s grave and the Tower of Edar were; not for an audience in the future, but an audience at the time.

In a very disturbing turn of events, Reuben, (Jacob and Rachel’s firstborn), lays with Bilhah, his father Jacob’s concubine. Bilhah was the mother of Reuben’s brothers Dan and Naphtali. In a sort of “ok it happened but let’s move on” the author brings up this odd event so:

35:22 – And it came to pass, when Israel dwelt in that land, that Reuben went and lay with Bilhah his father’s concubine: and Israel heard it. Now the sons of Jacob were twelve: (continue on to list all 12).

Reuben lay with his brother’s Dan and Naphtali’s mother, his stepmom, and it’s just mentioned in passing by the author. No consequence noted, nor is it mentioned if there was child involved.

Isaac passes away and is buried by his sons Esau and Jacob.




Where is/was God? Who protects the innocent? Gabri-El where art Thou?!

I’m back, I’m angry. My experience with seeing torment in a child’s eyes:

I watched as a young boy of 6 years, very innocent and quiet, a little feeble for his age, was minding his own business while his dad, his brothers, and his cousins were horsing around. The dad, out of nowhere, goes up to the boy, and pinches him on the chest, which, if it’s ever happened to you, and it’s done right, can sting like hell, especially if the pinch grabs enough nerves in the right spot to really bite. The boy shrieked out quietly, and in so much pain, he couldn’t even start crying because he was still grimacing and “stuck” inhaling air.

I will never forget the look of terror on his face, he looked around for help and no one cared. The man he calls his dad, the one who he looks up to, to protect him and be a role model, just inflicted a serious amount of pain for no reason at all. After all, the boy was just sitting down minding his own business. As soon as he starts to cry, his parent’s begin to chastise him: “Don’t cry, don’t be a baby… If you’re going to cry go outside so no one can hear  you… That didn’t hurt and you know it…”

As if the physical pain wasn’t enough, no one believed the pain he was feeling, and he runs off to his grandmother who comforts him. In between his gasping for air from crying, I can hear him in the distance crying out “He hurt me! He hurt me!” not understanding why his dad would do such a thing.

Physical and emotional pain from the most important man in his life. It’s one thing to try to toughen up a kid, it’s another to inflict pain and confusion for no reason at all. I could almost feel this little boy’s pain and I nearly cried.

Fast forward (well actually rewind back to 2013 but the story is in the news today)… a young boy of 8 years old spends 8 months of abuse and outright torture from his own mother and her boyfriend. When his body finally broke down from the abuse, his ‘parent’s’ finally decided to called 911. Paramedics arrive to find a boy covered in scars, bruises, and burns, barely clinging to life. In what some can say is now a relief, and someone PLEASE bless his poor soul, the boy passes away on the way to the hospital.

The mother and boyfriend were completely indifferent to the event. Neither one went with the boy in the ambulance. The mother was more concerned about her other children and her cats. The boyfriend, a 6’2″ 250 plus pound man, we learn, spent 8 months manhandling a completely defenseless 8 year old boy and showed no concern for him either as the boys limp body was wheeled into an ambulance.

Trying to imagine the fear and terror the boy must have felt EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF THOSE 8 MONTHS is absolutely soul crushing. There was NO ONE there to defend him. The woman who gave birth to him assisted in the abuse because, they thought, that the boy was ‘gay’. One of the medics recalled seeing that the young boy’s penis looked like it had been sliced, as if someone tried to cut it off.

I recall getting spanked as a young child and smarting from it for a few minutes, dealing with it emotionally for a day or so, then moving on because I knew I deserved it. This poor innocent child spent 8 MONTHS being brutalized and he probably didn’t even understand why, couldn’t do anything about it, couldn’t defend himself, and as we learn as the story unfolds, authorities gave a blind eye to the situation after being warned multiple times. I imagine what it would feel like to feel like the pinched little boy, looking around for help but no one is around, for 8 freaking months on end, without rest or reprieve, or a response.

Where was God? Jesus? Guardian Angels? ANYBODY?!

If you’re still not engaged in the premise of this story, imagine an 8 year old child being tortured, every day, from Easter until Christmas day, where he finally dies from the abuse.

I hear people, every day: “Thank God I got this job now I can buy a house… my kid got accepted to the university, God is good… I didn’t get hurt in a car accident I caused, I must have a guardian angel…. I fear nothing because I have Jesus… etc.”

What do you have to say about this child? You think God has prioritized that acceptance letter your child got in the mail over defending the life of an innocent child? You think God is more worried about your grades, you passing an exam, your car not breaking down, your spouse finding out they don’t have cancer instead of an innocent 8 year old getting beaten, tortured and dehumanized for months on end until he dies? I guess you do because you can not explain why the God you worship and praise abandoned this innocent, helpless, tortured child yet seemed to heap blessings upon you.

Tell me just where was your God when this boy spent the last months of his life in absolute terror? Was he more worried about making sure your kid’s leg wasn’t broken after a high school football game? Making sure you got that raise you’ve been praying for?

Get serious. This child had NO ONE, not one person on earth, not one entity in the heavens, come to his rescue. It’s like you are praising EMPTINESS. There is no justice in your praise. The only entity that came to his rescue was DEATH.

Oh, you can tell me that he’s safe in Jesus arms now and make yourself feel better about the whole situation by squeezing this square block of child torture into the round circle you call your faith, trying to convince me that it all fits and is all part of a master plan, that the ends justify the means, but I say garbage. Where was Jesus when this boy feared the torture he’d endure every night when his mom’s boyfriend came home? What did Jesus say about hurting children? Was Jesus more concerned about whether you went to church on Sunday or more concerned about who virtue signaled the most during fellowship and prayer?

This poor boy suffered immensely for 8 months and died in the hands of strangers. There was no God nor Jesus by his side, just some medics performing CPR as he slowly faded away. Apparently these great entities were both too busy dealing with everyone elses daily matters to protect a poor innocent boy.

This may be the worst news story I’ve ever heard. Yes, I understand there are terrible things going on all around us, but this one hit a nerve.

For 8 long months, over 240 days and nights (in biblical terms, more than SIX Great Floods of Noah could have occurred in this time), neither God, Jesus, or any of the many Guardian Angels you give thanks and praise to every day for your menial daily blessings, could take the time to protect and defend this child.

I know people do pray for the unnamed lowly, the sick, the lonely, the hungry, the downtrodden, the helpless, the abused of the world who we don’t know but we know are out there. When I attended church, we did it all the time. Were our prayers answered in this case?

And you wonder why people say “God is dead”.

It seems the only prayers that are answered, are those ones we constantly hear about that deal with peoples individual lives, health, and possessions.

When you tell me God blesses you everyday, I say either you are full of it, or the God you praise so much isn’t all cracked up as you make him out to be, especially if he prioritizes putting giant portions of food on your table and a house over your head while an 8 year old gets tortured to death.

On that note, I am restarting this journal. People’s notions of God and Jesus mingling in their daily lives is preposterously skewed. I would love to see what the God is good crowd would tell this innocent little child who could have used God’s protection after he spent 8 months getting beaten to death.

The death of helpless pups, whelps, calves, etc happen often in the animal kingdom. You tell me we live in the Kingdom of God. Which kingdom do we live in when a helpless 8 year old boy spends 8 months of being tortured and eventually dies? The Kingdom of God? Preposterous.

You tell me it’s a FACT that you are blessed by God, your beliefs are FACT, the bible is FACT. Well I got a FACT for you: For 8 months while your God was busy  blessing you, he ignored the torture of this helpless child that led to his death. Who needed God more during these 8 months and, according to you, who did God favor?

Some might ask: “Why would God let this happen?” I’ve heard so many answers. Seems every Christian has an answer usually followed by a hand picked flowery verse from the Bible. I give props to one Pastor on the radio when asked this question, honestly and bluntly answered: “I don’t know.” Sir, thank you for being honest and not trying to make up an answer.

But, the bible gives us a clue.

Let’s take a look at the deity, the Lord/Jehovah/YHWH, god of the Old Testament, he chastised the Israelite’s for passing their children through the fires of Moloch but never mentioned stopping the sacrifices from happening in the first place, so it seems there is precedence to not stop or prevent child abuse and murder even in Biblical times.

You would worship a god that allows helpless children to be sacrificed by their own parents? How do you explain that? Do you worship out of fear?

It’s one thing to punish the wicked adult Israelite’s for their actions, but to let the innocent children still in the need of protection from evil pass through the fires of Moloch at the hands of their parents? Where was the sword and shield of God we hear glorified in the flowery verses of Psalms? Seems he only comes to the rescue in times of war. Sacrifice a child to Moloch? Silence, until he finally decides to punish the parents, but guess what? The child was BURNED AS A SACRIFICE TO MOLOCH!

What did Jesus say about harming children??

His name is Gabriel Fernandez. They tried to cut his penis off. His mom broke his teeth with a bat. Her boyfriend beat and burned him and forced him to eat cat feces. He slept in a small cabinet every night. He was too little, too helpless, too outnumbered to protect himself. There is another powerful being named Gabriel who could have intervened and helped this child namesake: Archangel Gabriel. Archangel Gabriel did not help him. Archangel Gabriel was nowhere to be found.

What sin did this poor child commit to deserve being ignored by all the heavenly powers you worship? Do you understand yet?

When I was 8 years old I remember telling my mom that I was finally beginning to understand things in the world. This 8 year old never even had a chance, not even with an almighty God in Heaven.

Genesis 30 – Jacob’s son of Leah, Rachel, and their handmaids. Man dragons?

Rachel, envious of her sister’s births, angers Jacob by demanding he give her children, when Jacob lays the blame for her closed womb on God. In another common occurrence, Rachel demands that Jacob impregnate her hand maid, and now we are told that Jacob has lain with a woman for the purpose of bearing children.

Sons of Bilnah and Jacob (Words of Rachel who named the sons):

5. Dan – “God hath judge me, and hath also heard my voice, and hath given me a son”

6. Naphtali – “With mighty wrestlings have I wrestled with my sister, and have prevailed”

Rachel claims she has prevailed over Leah despite having to resort to her handmaid for her sons and being outnumbered 4 to 2. Leah, who had left off bearing, answers back by having Jacob impregnate her handmaid, Zilpah.

Son of Zilpah and Jacob (Words of Rachel who named the son):

7. Gad – “Fortunate!”

Reuben, the oldest son, finds mandrakes in the field during wheat harvest and brings them to his mother Leah. His aunt Rachel demands Leah give them to her (they must have had some serious value) and Leah refuses, telling Rachel that not only has she taken her husband, now she wants to take her sons mandrakes. In a telling verse, Rachel offers a trade: Reuben’s mandrakes and Leah is allowed to sleep with Jacob (does this answer the previous question: Was Jacob the father of the first four sons of Leah?)

Genesis 30:16 And Jacob came from the field in the evening, and Leah went out to meet him, and said, Thou must come in unto me; for I have surely hired thee with my son’s mandrakes. And he lay with her that night.

Lely, Peter, 1618-1680; Reuben Presenting Mandrakes to Leah
Depiction of a young Reuben bringing mandrakes to his mother Leah. Note the ‘handmaid’ with child, most likely Dan, Naphtali, or Gad borne to handmaid Bilnah. Also note the (collared) dog in the painting, because there is correlation (warning on pursuing this connection)

We are told God hearkened unto Leah (who was no longer able to give birth aka “left off bearing” but now she was?)

Sons of Leah with Jacob (Words of Leah who named the sons:)

8. Issachar – “God hath given me my hire, because I gave my handmaid to my husband”

9. Zebulun – “God hath endowed me with a good dowry; now will my husband dwell with me, because I have borne him six sons”

Daughter of Leah (no indication Jacob was the father): Dinah.

God “remembers” Rachel, who has been barren all this time, and opens her womb (no indication Jacob was the father though it’s a good assumption).

10. Joseph – “God hath taken away my reproach; Jehovah add to me another son”

Back to mandrakes: can also be translated as “man dragons”, they seem to be a plant found in parts of the middle east. It could also be a general term for a group of hallucinogenic plants. An internet search will show that some of these tubers called mandrakes actually look like humans. The context of it in this book is unknown, however the idea that Leah would trade mandrakes to Rachel for the privilege of sleeping with her/their husband means that these items were highly valuable to Rachel, enough where she’d let another woman (even though it was his wife) sleep with him. Twice.

mandrake root
Hallucinogenic? Collectible? Why would Rachel, who was highly envious of Leah for having an open womb, allow Leah to sleep with Jacob for the mandrakes that Leah’s son Reuben had gathered? Here is an example of a creature figure like root of what is commonly known as mandrake. The mandrake in this book could be an entirely different plant however.


Genesis 22 – The Test, Human Sacrifice, the Lineage to Isaac’s wife

Genesis 22:1 – And it came to pass after these things, that God did prove Abraham, and said unto him, Abraham; and he said, Here am I. And he said, Take now they son, thine only son, whom thou lovest, even Isaac, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt-offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of.

If ever a verse would turn away the average reader into abhorrent disgust from this book, this would be it. Jehovah promises Abraham that his seed will be as countless as the sand, yet God is telling him to now sacrifice him as a burnt offering? Abraham seems response-less, not even asking for clarification. He questioned Jehovah multiple times about the future, his destiny, his covenant. But sacrifice your only son? No response.

It was a 3 day journey to the spot in Moriah, and Abraham, without emotion, separates himself and Isaac from the two young men that accompanied him. In yet another act of deception by Abraham:

22:7 – And Isaac spake unto Abraham his father, and said, My father: and he said, Here am I, my son. And he said, Behold, the fire and the wood: but where is the lamb for a burnt-offering? And Abraham said, God will provide himself the lamb for a burnt-offering, my son…

Why couldn’t Abraham just tell him the truth? More fear from Abraham, maybe Isaac would run off and Abraham would incur the wrath of God? Then we learn it was a test, a test to find out if Abraham feared God.

Why the need for a test, doesn’t God know all peoples thoughts and motives? The only reason to test Abraham is because God didn’t know if Abraham feared him. Why go through such a test if you are all knowing? Why does anyone prove something they already know?:

  • To prove it to other people
  • To wallow in the knowledge of being right
  • They are unsure of their knowledge

The angel of Jehovah interrupts Abraham right before he slays Isaac:

22:11 – And the angel of Jehovah called unto him out of heaven, and said, Abraham, Abraham: and he said, Here am I. And he said, Lay not they hand upon the lad, neither do thou anything unto him; for NOW I know that thou fearest God, seeing thou hast not withheld thy son, thine only son, from me.

Abraham Isaac altar
No fear mentioned from Abraham or Isaac. Just a normal day of sacrifice?

An insecure God? He didn’t know that Abraham feared him before this test? Not knowing the loyalty of his servants with which he has performed miracles, destroyed cities, and created covenants for him and his generations to follow? The only one in this story with conviction is Abraham, who did what he was instructed without hesitation. It is God in this verse who has to test the lesser being for his devotion. This is odd and undermines the omniscient quality modern religion has applied to our understanding of God.

Not only that, was it normalized in biblical times for a man to sacrifice his children? It’s not mentioned yet but the answer is yes, and future verse will prove it. Maybe not in the realm of Jehovah but certainly in this land, and we know Abraham has traveled in all directions at this point. We already read how Lot was ready to give up the virginity of his two daughters to scores of wicked men of Sodom and Gomorrah, possibly leading to their death. We know the Israelite’s fed their children to the fires of Moloch/Molech in future verse. Is this why Abraham didn’t flinch at the thought of sacrificing his son? It was already normalized?

Now I’m seeing the difference between what modern churches and interpretation apply to God as a trait and what the Bible states. They are not the same. If God knows all then why the need to test his servant and finally state “yes, NOW I know you fear me”. He admits he didn’t know before hand.

Genesis 22 ends with the lineage of Abraham’s sister in law Milcah from Abraham’s brother (including children from his concubine).

Genesis 21 – Sarah conceives, Hagar flees, Abraham & Abimelech make peace

Fulfilling his promise:

Genesis 21:1 – And Jehovah visited Sarah as he had said, and Jehovah did unto Sarah as he had spoken. And Sarah conceived, and bare Abraham a son in his old age, at the set time of which God had spoken to him.

What exactly did he “do unto Sarah”? Note that it is due to Jehovah’s “visit” to Sarah, and not the knowing of Sarah by Abraham that caused this conception. Sure enough it sounds like a recreation of the events in Genesis 6, when a heavenly being impregnates a “daughter of man”. We also know that the children of this union became “mighty men, men of renown” and eventually wicked and wiped out by the Flood in those days.

So is this child Abraham’s seed if Abraham didn’t contribute, physically, to the child’s conception? The child’s name was Isaac, he was circumcised after 8 days, and they held a great feast on the day he was weaned. The mother of the half Egyptian son of Abraham (truly Abraham’s seed for we know he impregnated Hagar), was seen to be mocking at the feast. Sarah asks Abraham to throw her and Abraham’s son out and that the child should not be a heir with Isaac. God comforted Abraham’s grief over this, promising that his son of Hagar will make a nation, and that he should listen to Sarah’s wishes.

21:12 –  …. for in Isaac shall thy seed be CALLED. And also of the son of the handmaid I will make a nation, because he is thy seed.

Notice the verbiage, Isaac will be CALLED his seed (though he isn’t, aka “we will call him your seed”) and God verifies that the son of Hagar is indeed his seed.

Abraham, with all the riches of gold, silver, cattle, handmaids and servants to give away as he pleases, wakes up the next day, gives Hagar a MERE PITTANCE of some bread and a bottle of water, and sends her on her way where she wanders the wilderness of Beer-Sheba. After the bottle of water runs out, and seemingly without hope, she places the child under a bush and distances herself so that she can not witness the death of her child.

hagar child
With nothing but some bread and a bottle of water, Hagar is cast into the wilderness where the grace of God comes upon her and saves her and her child, the seed of Abraham.

The cries of the child and the cries of Hagar rise up to God, and the angel of God tells Hagar to get up and hold the child, because he will be a great nation. God opened her eyes to see a water well, where she was able to fill her bottle and give the water to her child. God was with the child as he grew, he became a great archer who dwelt in the wilderness of Paran, and eventually married one of his mother’s kin, an Egyptian.

Jehovah tells Abraham the covenant is for him and his seed (the child CALLED his seed or his actual seed?) After this Book I’m starting to see a different picture.

  • Jehovah + Sarah (whatever happened when he visited her) = Isaac who God says is CALLED Abraham’s seed
  • Abraham + Hagar = Unnamed at this point but who God says IS Abraham’s seed
  • Abraham is starting to look more like a surrogate/earthly father for the child of heavenly Jehovah and earthly Sarah
    • Can it be denied that the Bible did not say Abraham conceived with Sarah?
  • Both children are promised greatness, but it is the child of Sarah by Jehovah’s actions that is promised the covenant. If Jehovah was the “father” of Isaac, then he is protecting his own child.

As outrageous as that sounds, it is what I am reading. Is this so outrageous after understanding what happened in Genesis 6 when beings from heaven mated with females on earth? Remember, there were giants/Nephilim in those days AND after, as verse mentions. Was this heavenly being/earthly female propagation continuing after the flood?

In what really should be a separate book, Book 21 ends with a peace treaty between Abraham and Abimelech in the land of Philistines where Abraham sojourned for many days.

Genesis 20 – More wife deception, victim = King of Gerar

Abraham journeys away from the oaks of Mamre towards the land of the south and ends up in Gerar. Not really sure *why* he sojourned, possibly due to the recent events in Sodom and Gomorrah?

Not sure why he had to do this, it does not say out of fear for his life as it was previously with the Pharaoh, but this time he tells Abimelech, king of Gerar that Sarah is his wife. Guess what happens next:

  • Abimelech takes her, but does not go near her
  • God comes in a dream to Abimelech and tells him “you’re a dead man” because Sarah is someones wife
  • Abimelech explains the lie of Abraham and Sarah to him, and in his heart and innocence did he do all this
  • God says he knows, that it was HE that withheld Abimelech from sinning and it was HE who made it so he wouldn’t touch her

Genesis 20:7 (God to Abimelech) Now therefore restore the man’s wife; for he is a prophet, and he shall pray for thee, and thou shalt live: and if thou restore her no, know thou that thou shalt surely die, thou, and all that are thine.

This is the first time we’ve seen Abraham be called a prophet.

In an echo of the deception put upon the Pharaoh, Abimelech calls Abraham out and asks him why he would do such a thing. Abraham says he feared for his life because of his wife. It is also at this point that Abraham admits that Sarah, his wife, is his half sister.

Reminder Sarah is well up in age, so why would Abraham worry about it now? Wouldn’t the king of Gerar have his choice of much younger women? So what exactly was he doing by taking her?

Questions remain:

  • After all that Jehovah has done for Abraham, all the covenants, all the manipulation, the promises, and destruction, why would Abraham still walk in fear for his life?
  • Is Abraham really a prophet? Or was it a sham to convince Abimelech that it was Abraham, and not God, who would be healing his family, thus elevating Abraham higher than usual?

So, for being deceived by Abraham, and not actually doing anything wrong, as even God admitted, Abimelech suffers a death threat from God, his wife and female slaves all go barren, and he ends up paying Sarah 1,000 pieces of silver to right his “wrong.” Sure enough, Abraham prays for Abimelech and his wife and female slaves are healed and can once again bare children.